Thursday, June 28, 2012

All About My Dad~ By Jackson

A post not about the twins~ shocking I know!

For Father's Day, Jackson Sunday School class filled out a questionnaire about their dad's and I just had to share Jackson's answers:

My dad's name is: Korban (correct)
He is: 35 years old (correct)
He is: 10 feet tall (not quite)
He weighs: 1,105 pounds (thank goodness that one is WAY off!!!!)
His favorite TV show is: he doesn't really watch TV (true, he would much rather be reading a book or    playing with the ipad)
His favorite food is: fruits and vegetables (not his favorite to eat, but it is his favorite to bug the kids about eating more of)
His favorite thing to drink is: water (again, not his favorite to drink, but he always makes the kids drink water before they can have something else to drink)
He likes to wear: ties (Korby has to wear a tie to work 6 out of 7 days a week- definitely not a favorite!)
My Dad is really good at: helping protect me (ahhhhhhh.... how sweet!)
I like it best when my dad: protects me (I don't know what kind of troubles a 5 year old kid gets into to need this much protecting from, but I'm glad that he has his dad there to do it!)
My favorite think to do with my dad is: wrestle (very true!)
When my dad goes to work he: is the City Manager (close~ Assistant City Manager)

Korby really is the most AMAZING father!  I am so blessed that my children will grow up in a home where they have a loving, involved, caring, fun loving dad!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Still Kicking

22 weeks today and so far so good!  I can feel the babies move every day which gives me a huge piece of mind that everything is still going well.  A couple of people have asked me if I can tell that there are 2 babies in there kicking.... not really so far.  It is still just lots of little bumps and thumps~ but no way to determine if the movements are coming from one or both babies mostly.  Occasionally though, I will feel movements on both sides of my stomach at the same time and since the little peanuts are still pretty small, I know it is both babies.

My next appointment is next week (at 23 weeks) where we will consult more with my doctor and one of the NICU doctors about when to start my inpatient monitoring and what to expect in the coming weeks as we do what we can to keep these little ones growing inside me as long as possible without risking their lives at the same time.  It seems surreal that we are already so close to this point in the pregnancy.  We have known I would be admitted to the hospital between 24 and 26 weeks since the very beginning of the pregnancy, but it is suddenly becoming much more real and as much as I am trying to stay calm about it, I am starting to stress and worry about it more.  I want my babies to stay inside me as long as they can, but at the same time the anxiety of knowing that we could still loose them if we wait too long is starting to get to me.  We still have a very long road ahead of us.  It is just hard to know what to expect since there are so many different outcomes~ from the very worst case scenario to the very best possible scenario and a hundred scenarios in between.  How do you prepare for that?  I don't think there is any magical answer, so I just keep praying and taking it one day at a time.

Believe it or not, there is more to our lives these days then just talking about the twins.  Tanner got baptized a couple of weeks ago, school got out, my kids got their yellow belts in karate, we just got back from an amazing trip to California, Vivian is now 1, Korby climbing Devil's Tower!  I have pictures of everything, I just haven't had a chance to go through them yet.  Once I do, I will definitely get some up!  

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Girls Rule.... Boys Drool

Well, it's official~ girls will be running this household!  We found out on Friday that we are having 2 little girls!  Shayden is super excited, the boys aren't so sure yet.  Vivian doesn't know what's going on, but I think she will be pretty happy to have 2 little sisters to play dress up, house, dolls, etc with once they all get a little older.

Our appointment on Friday was reallllly long!  An ultra sound lasting 2 1/2 hours!  By the time they were done I had so much of that gel stuff on my tummy~ the towel they used to wipe it all off was completely wet!  And they still didn't get it all off.  But..... everything looks great, so it was all worth it!!!!!  They are just 1 day apart from each other in growth, which is wonderful.  And so far all of their anatomy looks great!  Our doctor told us there wasn't anything she saw that concerned her!  They will be taking a closer look at the girl's hearts in 2 weeks~ just to get some clearer pictures and so that they will be a little bigger (right now their hearts are the size of a pinkie finger nail- WOW!)

I keep feeling like it is taking forever for them to get her, but at the same time it is all going to happen so fast!  I have an appointment set up at 21 and 23 weeks.  At the 23 week appointment we will also meet with a neonatologist to start discussing the different scenarios of what to expect when the twins are born (depending on how early they are delivered- which could be any time between 26 and 32 weeks!)  Which means that if there was a problem, these babies could be born as early as 7 weeks from now!  Yikes!!!!  We are definitely not ready for that!

Over my last couple of appointments my doctor has let me know that there is another mom, being seen by a different doctor at the hospital, who is also pregnant with mo-mo twins!  She has been talking to both of us to see if we would be willing/want to get in touch with each other just to have someone else to talk to who is in the same situation.  At this last appointment she was finally able to tell me her name and she was going to give her my phone number.  This mom is about 2 months ahead of me and just went into the hospital on bed rest, so I am really anxious to talk to her and visit her to get a better idea of what to expect.

About 2 weeks ago we were able to go and visit some friends that have a baby in the NICU at the same hospital they will be delivering at.  Their little boy was born at 32 weeks (her water broke and they couldn't stop her labor).  He was only 4 pounds 1 ounce but he is doing amazing!!!!!  It was good for both Korby and I  in different ways.  It was good for me just to get a sense of where we will be, what the schedule is like, what the rooms are like.  I do a lot better when I know before hand what to expect, so it was really helpful for me to just see what it was going to be like.  Korby on the other hand was terrified!!!  We are both so worried and stressed about just getting the babies here alive, that he hadn't given really any thought to what it would be like once they were actually born.  32 weeks is our max, our best case scenario!  It is very likely that our babies could be 3 or even 2 pounds when born with significantly more problems.  So it was great for Korby to get a sense of just how tiny these little babies will be and how delicate their situation will be.

To end on a happy note~ I am starting to feel the babies move!  It is going to be so reassuring to be able to know on a daily basis that if my babies are still moving, then things are still going well.  Even though I go in every 2 weeks and I get to see them each time, those 13 days in between appointments it is so hard to always remain optimistic about the situation.  So even though I will soon be complaining about being kicked by 4 feet, punched by 4 hands, with 2 heads and 2 bums that will stick out and push~ I will be so thankful for every movement!!!  I will be so thankful for my girls!!!!!!!